Self realisation issues.

Every day i wake up a little different, a little newer and a little wiser so to admit i change would be a yes.  Yet, sometimes i fall right back into my own trap, and i let the same mistakes to consume me over and over again, allowing the same troubles to bother me.

1)  NOT EVERYONE YOU MET WILL LIKE YOU.

This is something which always always will bother me. I tend to want everyone to like me, like who doesn't right? But i have to learn that yes, in life there are going to be people who don't like you and there's nothing much we can do about it. We can't let it affect us and we could never see it as a opportunity to hate that someone back. For all i know in my life right now, i don't hold any particular hatred or dislike towards someone. It is very energy consuming and emotionally draining for me to do so. 

2)DON'T TAKE HATE TOO PERSONALLY.

as said earlier, i have to learn that hatred will comes along but instead of letting it manifest, allow it to stop when it comes to our side. 

3)KNOW THAT SOMETIMES PEOPLE AREN'T ALWAYS APPRECIATIVE AS THEY SHOULD BE , BUT THAT SHOULDN'T STOP YOU FROM DOING GOOD.

I can say that this is also another which badly bothers me for a long period of time. I can be trying to work so hard for this particular thing / help a person who treat me badly to found out i am being used again etc etc. But on the other hand,know that there are appreciative people too.

4)DO NOT ALLOW ANY FORM OF JEALOUSY TO CONSUME OURSELVES

I have a thing of wanting to be perfect since young and to be being imperfect/flawful just scares me so much. I don't like to be vulnerable , i want to be at the top. I think honesty, who doesn't? But i have also slowly came to realise in this few years that being at the top isn't that important when we are all alone. When you are at the top but you neglect your friends, love ones. Being at the top can mean many ways, especially with social media as such a influential tool these days. It could be having a very cool social networking account, having a lot of  'cool' friends, having a lot of expensive stuffs etc etc. I have heard people, friends of mine telling me why am i hanging out with uncool people. What i believe is that when i made friends, i do not think about their appearance or dressing style. More importantly i make friends with people for their personality. Since young, it has been a thing of mine to notice the more quiet people as i am one myself as well and their mysterious personalities are what always intrigues me.  I am aware that my likings are very different from some of them, i like trendy, artsy stuffs and literature; not many whom can relate. Yet, i still can pursue these likings alone, i am alright and perfectly fine with that till i can meet one whom have similar interests. To people who tells me that my friends are uncool, i feel sad for you because you might have many cool friends but how many is willing to listen to your phone call at 2am? How many would truly care to speak hurtful but truthful words for you to be a better person instead of showering you with compliments with hidden underlying meanings?

For, when we are old and full of wrinkles, we will all came to realise that beauty doesn't last forever. 

Jealousy is a wicked tool, why get jealous of things that we can't have and look at things we do have. 

5)LEARN TO BE SO COMFORTABLE WITH YOURSELF TILL YOU WILL NEVER FEEL ALONE.

It's human nature to want company. However, ultimately the time that we find we find ourselves spending the most is still on our own. We need to accept some flaws that can't be change, try to change those that could be and work on our strengths. It's tougher than words and thoughts can put it but i am slowly learning about this. 

6)CONFIDENCE IS NOT WALKING IN A ROOM WITH OUR NOSE HIGH AND THINKING WE ARE BETTER THAN ANYONE ELSE BUT TO STAND IN A CROWD OF PEOPLE AND NOT COMPARING OURSELVES TO ANY OF THEM.

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and the list goes on and on. but basically, you get the idea. 

xx,