Progress

Did i made progress?

Two steps front;

then two steps back.

Did i made progress? 

Cutting connections;

then frantically re-lighting them.

Did i made progress? 

Months of looking to new:

then nights of lonely old.

Did i made progress? 

Touch, lips and intertwining all of me to a new man;

then wishing i was actually holding your hand. 

Did i made progress? 

blissful grateful;

then convincing myself i was still a mess

oh was i a fool

thought i could play it cool.

Did i made progress? 

in familiar new home 

where i called out “love” 

and with him,

into open arms. 

and fragments turn a little like ashes, 

whatever time has already taken. 

In that home,

i believe now is my very present

with my presence. 

: and yes, i did.