a nutcracker.

There are many things i take it too personally when i shouldn have.

words, actions, memories. 

of toxic.

sometimes being nice to the wrong people makes my day so shitty. 

in turn other whom i hadn been so nice to always are nice to me. 

what a paradoxical series of events indeed. 

Yes, i may look aloof and detached sometimes but that doesn means i fancy being lonely.

& i was there to look out for you before. 

Yet, you told me i had to have more company. 

The irony was that more company does not means less lonely. 

I embarked a journey of my own than sticking to people who make me feel worthless. 

Then. I realised people who claimed to loved me before were lies, 

for they actually were in love with themselves more. 

I've seen the clues before them and had no choice but to make a move,

to play the villain. 

I don't think there is a right word to describe my emotions. 

It's been way too long, way too cold. 

and nothing seems to ever filled this hollow empty void which can't be name,

can't be tamed. 

-a.g